End of summer session

Summer classes are ending next week, whoa.
Summer was pretty quick well, only 6 weeks of classes so I guess it was short.

Twice a week, from 6pm to 9:30pm, I would sit in one class, then the next day I would do the same. I took 2 classes - both Sociology. They were pretty interesting i must say. Ive been enjoying the class too much that I think i might take more sociology classes next semester!

The ironic thing is that I took two 200+ level courses before taking the mandatory intro course which I am planning to take next sem (fall).

Anyways, enough of school talk, I recently moved into my new apartment which is 5 minutes away from campus by walk. Which isnt bad, but let's see what will happen when it starts snowing massively.

I still need to get furniture such as a side table so I can put in some stuff. I also need a mini desk (like a short short small coffee table) that will cover up all the nasty medusa-like wires thats going everywhere in the room. So far, I have a bed and a bookshelf which I built by myself and Im kinda proud of it.

Now that I have my own tv, Ive been watching Eurocup. I just finished watching Portugal vs Germany. Nicely Germany won and I was very dissapointed with Ronaldo. but oh well.....

In less than 2 weeks, I'm leaving here, for Philippines and for Japan, kinda excited but not the plane ride. I wanna go to 6 Flags before going thou because my best friend told me that he'll take me once he gets back. He just started his road tripping across the country, which Im really excited and worried about. Its his second time doing this, but still kinda worried.

Anyways, yea, nothing much. I should start doing one of my paper.

nostalgic

hi and goodbye,

i am officially done with my second year of college, and i still have two more years to go until i recieve my undergraduate degree.

exams this semester wasn't intense as last semester's - in fact, i had no exams, but endless papers and presentations which i confidently did. and i hope my grades reflect on my hardwork.

so i was just doing laundry, and i felt somewhat nostalgic -
i am done with sophomore year but in my second year of college, i experienced "first-year" life. meaning to say that i did not have a freshie life before - i was surrounded by many people who were warm hearted and had lots to offer. now, i do have many people in my life who has lots to offer, but now that my best friend isnt here, i feel lonely, felt like im back in my first semester at college, just that it was longer.

this semester, i never got the motivation to do anything, to work, enjoy, parties, whatever. really.
i feel weird and odd, off-guard all the time. i feel sad too.

i have gone thru good and bad like many, but mainly, this semester i found myself arguing and thinking, laughing and crying about guy problems. problems which i rarely encountered in my previous life back in asia. just that this time was intense.

other than that, i am left with boxes undone and 50% of my room still unpacked
i miss everything and everyone. school is so deserted already and im lonely. i wana be in love.

or is this because ive been watching too many dramas the past 4 days? (i completed 3 japanese dramas; Hotaru no Hikari, Sasaki fusai no jinginai tatakai, and First kiss) all love stories.

after watching Hotaru no Hikari, it made me think that i myself is a himono-onna. dried up till the bones, no love, just working my way through the unlit tunnels....


pst, wtf, .

bye

slow death of spring semester 08

exams are coming up and of course, graduation of the seniors. I never thought graduation of seniors would affect me. But a classmate of mine gave me her invitation to the commencement. I felt kind of sad.

spring approaches and the sun is flaring up. global warming occuring as many malnourished children and women of rural Africa and Southeast Asian suffer every day. what can we do to help?
If only I can change their lives for the better in a global scale, i wont ask for more.

the water in our basins drying up just like the blood, that i feel is wasted, splattering everywhere around Iraq. Innocent elders, innocent children getting killed right in front of their friends, families, and countrymen. How much more does people have to suffer from this time, money and life consuming war? Why can't people agree to one thing and compromise? News taking away breaths and a heart skipping a beat or two of parents, relatives, friends, children, lovers as the face picture of the brave soldiers are shown for 10 seconds on the screen. News anchors emphasizing on "brave" a couple of times - i do agree, another life wasted in a useless war. why isnt the UN doing anything? what has gotten into peoples' minds?!

i am cynical, i hate this world. the men dominating world just annoys me. as a japanese, i was taught that women should just stay quiet and peaceful. and i am internally rebelling slowly turning externally. i know i am cynical and a rebellion. is there a problem? like ive said, i do hate this world. how can i love this world if people are fighting over meaningless things? and innocent people suffering wanting to live a second longer...
if only the war ends and with the money they different countries have put in the war, should go to the malnourished people and help them live just another day longer, a week, to a month then to a year, then to a decade and then to a century....

this planet is becoming a toxic waste site in the universe. women and children that are not given enough mobility are the ones suffering first after nature. brave women of all times; Rachel Carson with the DDT, Lois Gibbs of the Love Canal, Sandra Steingraber with the Illinois cancer clusters, Karen Silkwood in her Plutonium nuclear plant, Judith Hefland and her cancer from vinyl, and Erin Brockovich's investigation on Chromium IV.... they all risked their lives to show what is right and wrong to the men dominating society and were successful.
Now that i think about it, I am very fortuned that I did not grow in a western culture but of the Oriental east. Asia is very strict and yes it is male dominating, however, we women are given power and respect throughout history.

so what is spring? i would ask someone and a biologist would answer; breeding season for all living animals. a psychologist would answer; a warming and wakening up from the long winter - time to gain confidence. then a geographer like myself would answer; warming up of the world and cycling of pollutants and water.

but as a cynically eternal sad clown, spring to me is nothing. the western culture that i am living in is just getting worse. more people with guns and ill-mind sets. crimes everywhere and victims elsewhere.

the planet is suffering and so are we.
spring no longer means anything to us since we are too blinded by our actions and the social norms the media sets.

april showers

i hate it when it rains.

thursday was really sunny and so i sat outside and skipped work. i just chilled and enjoyed the weather, really. my class even convinced the professor that we should do work outside at the green (which is a grassy space right outside the main building and the geo building). we didnt do much other than just chitterchatter.

its saturday and i finished my articles for tmw's internship so now im just waiting for my nails to dry up so i can take out my laundry from the dryer.

maybe i will do another round of drying coz i have so many things inside that small machine.

i listen to hiphop and feel happy, then some songs i relate to myself and feel sad or happy.

last night was gala day and gala here is like the biggest event and everyone goes there. last year, my roomie and i couldnt watch because of the lack of seats. but this year, we started lining up at like...5 (and the event was at 7) lol. was great, except my expectations were a bit too high that i wasnt that amazed. but i saw lotsa alumnus and some upperclassmen who i dnt really see on campus. <3>

i have to write an 8page paper by friday but im not in the mood at all. ugh ... i mean i did  most of the readings but i guess i dnt know what they were about - since it was ages ago lol

I will work on my paper next tuesday on spree day or something - why? because I want to relax today. im so restless these days and its annoying me. but i dont have boy problems anymore so thats all good.

79 more days till i fly back and im just really excited . sorta.

blah~ april showers, i hate i hate.

www.goswoop.com 

check out that site for lotsa info! <3 

how's it going ?

今私はインターンの大切なミーティングにいます

でも今やることが無いので別にもう一人のclarkieと一緒にぼ～っとしてます★

明日までに6ページのレポートを書かなければいけない

でもまだ何もしてないのでちょっとパニクっています（汗

このごろ親友（clarkで会った）とよく電話･チャットで話してるんだ～本当にうれしい～

でも、（ぜんぜん違う話、）KPって人がいてマジストーカーっぽいんだ～　「もう電話しないで」って何回も言ったのに何も聞いてくれない。最初はちょっとOCDな人だな～っと思ってたけど、今はもう頭が痛くなるくらい。

私は彼のことが好きではないのになぜ?i told him already that im not interested　でもhe's trying so hard to get me to like him.　it wont work. never.

自業自得なのかな～?だって、その気を見せたかもしれないし。。。

でも、straight up　「私はその気が有りません」っと言った

fuckers.

anyways　今夜はレポートを終わらせて早く寝るようにしよう～

明日は２教科ありますでも朝早い日本語のクラスは行かなくて良い。だから１１時くらいまで寝てられる～ん

あ～あ忙しいな

早く夏休みにならないかな～?多分親友も来るかもしれないから（卒業式）ちょっと楽しみだな～♪

それではまた。

後４～５週間で春学期も終わりだ～

でもこの４～５週間の間にマジ忙しくなる。プレゼンやレポート、テストや卒論プロポーザル。。色々あるな～

っままた後で

来週か再来週にでもまたエントリーを書きます

それでは

ciao

Hello [Spring], Goodbye [Winter]

Week 12 of Spring Semester,
finally spring decided to come join us...

Today, in like 5hrs 40 minutes, i have an exam...damn, i am scared, but i've been studying a lot. hopefully this time, it will reflect on my grades.

ive been wanting to post an entry here, but i havent had time and now thta im on the site, i cant remember what ive been wanting to write. so i'll revisit later on.

ciao

spring break came and went by like a 30 second silent film.

my solo trip to LA was fun, got to relax but not fully. too many new things. i spent my week with my best friend and his friends and of course, my teddybears. :)
lots of intense-ness that i had to go thru. i didnt find it intense until i came back. competition with his new friend - though like ive said, i didnt realize until the last day. jealousy was something i felt and fear of being faded in my best friend's circle of friendship. but oh well, like everyone says, i guess time goes on.

these days, ive been sleep deprieved and stress. the only person who makes me feel stress-free is my friend from Holy Cross. He takes me out to starbucks to listen to what i have to say (more like venting) and he also takes me racing with his volks sedan.

other than that, i was surprised my parents didnt scold me like i thought they would about my secret trip to LA. but my brother is very jealous about me tripping around. feel sad. but i needed it. im sure i wont be travelling as much though from now on, i have to get serious about my classes.

my class today got cancelled so im really happy. got time to have a nice long hot shower and make myself a bacon-egg brunch.

i went to have an interview with this new company called "goSwoop". to be honest, i want this internship. would be a great experience, really. being able to help others is always a good thing, makes me feel like ive accomplished something. also making someone else's day better. i was taught well by my family and i have enough time to do everything i want.
i have another interview with 2 other "goSwoopers" on sunday. Wow, sunday... -_- hopefully I can wake up on time

this weekend, im going to Waltham to sleep-over my friend's place and im so excited <3>

TA was fun, interesting i have to say. Ive been traumatized by them (just 2 of them) from 2 weeks ago, but then during the TA, they are under my control, theyre like dices rolling around my palm

today's been warm. im happy. weekend, here i come <3

"the matching tiffanys will keep the friendship living forever" and lets just hope that it wont be living on a thin thread.